Haha, imaginations are running wild inside my mind.
Nightmares are scary, wokeup with sweats etc.
My headaches are killing me! :@..
And people are ignoring me.. They don't mean what they said.
Hey, action speaks louder than words, dont say for the sake of consolling me.
I need someone who can actually endure my current situation, giving me support throughout.
But.. sigh, I should not even think of that,
People are having their own life, I shouldnt add my burden to the others hur.
Anw, things ain't getting better, im doing day dreaming while eating, even bathing.
Images keep flashing by, disturbing me. No, not that I wanted to think..
But.. it left a great impact within me ya. There's no way I can stop rewinding everything.
I need things to keep me occupied. Can someone please call and talks to me when im alone?
Or bring me out? But...... all I want to do now is just hiding inside my shell.
I got a little phobia to the world outside. Im worried to everywhere I go.
Can anyone tell me ways to forget everything? I feel like consuming sleeping pills, never waking up again. Im scare of hurting myself. Ya la , hum -_-
Im opening to people who hates me to drive a car and run over me now! Okay, joke.
Seriously, im really going crazy soonSoonSOON!
Im talking cork, doing crazy stuffs, sleeping, moodswing since yesterday.
Someone, please dial IMH hotline now and sent me in.
StressStressStressStressStress
Im privating my blog tomorrow, 00:00am.
I fianlly understand I shouldn't have rant to the others
I finally understand I shouldnt have tell others what I think
I fianlly understand I shouldnt have thought Im not alone,
Im always alone,
I always thought I've someone to rely on,
I always think that it's blessing in disguise,
I always think that it would bring us closer,
But thats what I think.
People don't like to hear rantings,
People don't like you giving them stress,
You must understand this,
The person you can rely and count on is you yourself.
I must learn how to wear a mask and entertain others,
Remember that there's noone in this world would really promise,
"You can rant on me, You can rely on me, Im always here for you."
It's merely words to console you for the timebeing..
But as time passby they will eventually get fatigued of your nonsense,
They'll aviod you, and slowlyslowly they're showing you their true colours.
So, after a going a big circle, you're still alone.
