downcast.....

Well.. Something saddening happened to me today...
I'll narate my feelings using this..


可以吗 让我和你对调
ke yi ma rang wo he ni dui diao
希望换成你 爱我爱得快要疯掉
xi wang huan cheng ni ai wo ai de kuai yao fong diao
知道吗 你对我多重要
zhi dao ma ni dui wo duo zhong yao
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱
zhi shi xian zai de wo men bing bu shi he yong bao
爱随着风飘荡
ai shui zhe fong piao dang
飘过了你嘴角飘到天涯海角
piao guo le ni de zui jiao dao tian ya hai jiao
把我困在这城堡 哪里也逃不了
ba wo ku zai zhe cheng bao na li ye tao bu liao
我不要别人温柔的怀抱听不见你的心跳
wo bu yao bei ren wen rou de huai bao ting bu jian ni de xin tiao
连我熟悉的味道 再也闻不到
lian wo shou xi de wei dao zai ye wen bu dao
我只要你喊我一次就好
wo zhi yao ni han wo yi ci jiu hao
从前亲昵的暗号
cong qian qing ni de an hao
多想再次亲耳听到
duo xiang zai ci qing er ting dao
让我暂时的依靠
rang wo zhan shi de yi kao
那是短暂止痛药 很快会失效
na shi duan zhan zhi tong yao hen kuai hui shi xiao
你只要再哄我一次就好
ni zhi yao zai hong wo yi ci jiu hao
让我可以很骄傲
rang wo ke yi hen jiao ao
记住我拥有过的好
ji zhu wo yong you guo de hao
记住在你怀里微笑
ji zhu zai ni huai li wei xiao



He and she met each other 4 years ago.
Sec1 till now.. They ain't good friends nor classmates during sec1 and 2 times.
In fact they had some hates in between due to something which were really retarded.
Till sec3, they became closer. It was during March or April i guess.
he asked her what's her surname, because he used to likes someone whom got the same name as her. So, thats how they got closer.
One fine day, he asked her if she wanna skips school. She hesitated and agreed.
So the both or them, accomapanied with 2 other girl-friends, skipped school.
They went cycling, eating breakfast, and playing a fool outta themselves.
It was an unfrgttable memories, yes, very. So, he started to get closer to her.
They started on smsing till there's no tomorrow, then msn chat.
Slowly, he started to calls her everyday, and they always sort of 'quarrel' on the phone.
They always laugh and laugh and frgot the timing! He always got tired and sleeps in class.
He always want to speak to her in class, but she ignores him. One day, he confessed to her.
However, she choose not to believe, because he used to be so flirt that almost every girl he likes them before. But, there this time, someone saw his screensaver/wallpaper was her photo.
She suspected, but when he told her that it was someone else who changed, she didn't care too much.
But.. as day passes by, she can feel that he really didn't lied. They got very very close when they were in 'xaangeyoo', I guess it was the time they got closer.
10Aug, he asked her out for breakfast. they played and fool around. It's fun.
he asked her for stead. But she hesitated, and requested for days.
He's very impatiently.. and on 12aug, 12;04am, she finally agreed. he feels so damn happy.
But she was already so asleep.
She guessed it was his first time in a r/s, so he feels very excited.
When she's on phone with him, he never fails to make her laughs.
When she's sad, he never fails to make her feel being loved.
When she's alone, he never fails to make her feel being accompanied tho he couldnt make it.
When she's angry, he never fails to give in and apologise to her.
When she's crying, he never fails to wipe off her tears for her.
When she's hungry, he never fails to buy food for her.
When she's tired, he never fails to pull her over and lay her on his shoulder.
When she's disappointed, he never fails to lighten up hopes for her.
When she's happy, he never fails to share the joy with her.
When she's falling asleep, he never fails to sent sweet messages for her.
When she's complaining about her families, he never fails to scold in with her and make her smile.
When she's lost, he never fails to assure that she's his one and only.
She love him more and more everyday. They're so sweet. Very very.
They sat beside each other, and they were like glued to each other.
Even though they had alot of obstacles in their relationship, they stil stand very strong tgt.
He's a very sweet guy. but, she's very very unreasonable at times, but no matter what, he still gives in to her.
No matter how many suffers he gonna get, he would try all his might, just too see her.
They had gone so far, that she didnt even expects it.
Now.. He changed into someone else.
Somehow, she blamed herself for now treasuring him in the past.
He tends to throw tempers, use words to hurt her, see her walks away and never pull her back, leaving her alone, never care for her, never accompany her..
Sometimes, she just felt so alone that she wants to give up, but she didn't and she holds on.
She wonders why can she be so stupid? She can have freedom and happiness if she lets go, but why didn't she. She love him too much.
She don't know what's his thinking, she don't know what he wants.
He just seems not to care for her alot. She felt so forlorn.
She just hopes that he would care her like how he did in the past.
She asked, is it so hard?
She hopes that he would laugh/smile because of her.
She hurts so much to know that she was the one who caused him sufferings and etc.
She hurt so much that sometimes he forgot her existence.
She really hopes that he know how much he meant to her..
She really hopes that he know how much she loved him..
She really hopes that when he's angry, he would think of those happy memories..
She really hopes that anything happens, she wants to be the first to know..
Can she got all these?