Well.
Nothing last forever.

You know, feelings do fade..
To love someone is to realise that this person might leave you,
So treasure the one you love.
But why, some people just took things for granted?
When they are around you, accompanying you, you chased them off, think that they're irritating,
but once, they ignores you, cold to you, didnt look for you anymore, you start to miss them.
Ridiculous ain't it?!
It's so hurtful, to know that, you no longer stands a position within th one you loved heart.
It's so hurtful, to know that, no matter what you do you're just a sore in his eyes.
It's so hurtful, to know that, he no longer loves you.
It's so hurtful, to know that, he no longer needs you.
Though you're not been told, but all this little things he shown you had already proven that,
Girl, he no longer needs you.
Sometimes, just thinking of how you're being treated, your heart just sanked, terribly.
Just think back, why are you doing so much?
Why should you do so much?
In the end you got all this shit? Why?
Yes, you must give commitment in a relationship, but what you did was equivalent to nothing.
Because no one appreciates it.
Now thinking back, why must you hide everything single bit of your sorrow and got scolded?
why must you go round begging people just to help him?
why must you always be alone just to accompany him?
why must you got scolded just because you wanted to help him?
why must you make yourself so thickskinned?
why must you put him as your first piority?
why must you go round searching for things he wants?
why must you beg people to reply your emails just for him?
why must you actually cry your lungs out just because of one words?
You wonders.. why you did so much? when you got nothing in return.
maybe yes, you got yourself a nice position as a 'fan' person inside his heart.

This time round.. im really tired.
I want to let go. Bye

This is the last post in my blog.
Might now be blogging anymore, or I would move to lj.
Lj could lock post. and this time, i wont tell anyone my URL.
No more.



... doing little things to get you out of my mind.
because.. im letting it go.
since you dont really needs me anymore, then i grant your wishes.
unless. you makes me feel im important.. which is totally impossible.
because you're so self-centered. which makes me a totally utterly mad woman desperate for you.